week by week
day by day
problem by problem
a block is coming to the end.
this week is the seventh problem of year 3 =)
i think i will miz lawerence, who reli is a child-like professor
though i am still far from knowing what 's in his mind

today i saw a great movie and "saw" the most perfect and greatest performer
he is Micheal Jackson
the name of the movie is <<Micheal Jackson's This Is It>>
i truely appreciate this singer, or more accurate, a performer
some say he is a shooting star falling with diminshing beam of light
some say he is a forever star hanging on the darkness
i say he is an unique star which not only radiates burning flame but also love and energy
perhaps star is born to fall juz like genius is born to die early.

i still have a dream
i desperately want it become true
this is mad, i know

sustain, sustain, sustain
i need to sustain for one more month, for one more problem, for one more block, for one more semester, for one n a half more year
i know all those around me, my fds, my family, my classmates are asking me to sustain for the sake of what you guys called as "future"
i know you love me and is supporting me at these tough moments
i dun need to realise this by hearing
i have realised this by seeing what you guys do for me, and i am reli thankful for all your encouragement and love and tolerance, though i dun feel like this is what i should deserve

bitterly serving the purpose of purchasing knowledge
a habituated psychological weakness has emerged for long...
needa get rid of it
for i am not defined by all these
i am juz utilizing all my resources and doing the best i can...

i dun care whatever the fucking "future" is
coz i am clearer than anyone of you that, what i am striving for is not  for big money, big house, or a western pat-dog
what i m striving for is more than these and i hope is related to the meaning of my life...

they are not the most important thing in my life at this moment

i juz do the best i can !